wtf why are you reading this shit

Everything about this town makes me miss you.

Terrible, I know. You never loved me. Never would. But every foot, every inch, every centimeter is lined and traced with a memory of you.

Its kind of interfering with my every day life.

Well, only when I’m in this town, anyway.

I thought I had gotten over you, when I moved. New place, new people, new relationships- I was so happy where I was. Never thought of you, not even once. But once I came back to this town, your memories came back with me.

And now I can’t sleep. I can’t eat. I just cry. I cry because I don’t know what I want. I don’t want to go back, but I don’t want to move on. I don’t want to remember, but I don’t want to forget.

There’s too much to keep in my heart.

I remember everything. Your scent. Your kiss. Your laugh. The way you held me, and the way you smiled. The way you’d pick me up from my house, late at night, sneaking out. The way you made me believe you cared.

But you didn’t.

I hate you. I hate what you did to me. Every hurt and every pain you ever pushed on me, every nasty word you said, every slap in the face, makes me wish I never met you. 

But I see you in my dreams.

And in my dreams, you love me.

And everything about this town makes me miss you.