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I told you I was having a bad day. You said smile, and I did. I laughed and said, “I love you. That works everytime.” You laughed, and said, “Aw, you love me, how cute,” and  I told you, “You think I’m kidding, but I’m being serious.” And you considered this for a moment and said love is a strong word. And I laughed and said there are lots of definitions for love. You said you don’t like that word because people use it too frequently. I said people use it frequently because people frequently love. You said nah.

So maybe you don’t believe me, but I really do love you. I love you so much, and maybe you don’t see it, and maybe you think it was just a joke, a throw-around of the phrase, because you’re right- some people do take the word love too lightly, make it too common, but the truth is love is everywhere and love is common. Love is nothing special or unique- it is just as common to our lives as the air we breathe and the water we drink. And just like the air we breathe and the water we drink, we don’t realize how important it is until we no longer have it.

People die without love, you know.

But for some reason, we want to make the words “I love you” special, as if we were only allowed to say it to the person we knew for a fact we would be with forever and be in love with forever.

This is impossible. There is no one in the world that will be with me forever or love me forever. Does that mean I don’t love them all the same? No. Of course I still love them. Sometimes I love them even when they don’t love me back. Sometimes I love people I have just met that day. Sometimes I love people I know nothing about. Sometimes I love people I most certainly do not want to marry or be with. Sometimes I love people who have no beauty and are still beautiful, and sometimes I love people who are imperfect and broken and still perfectly fine the way they are. Love is everywhere and anywhere because it has no limits and it knows know bounds. Thats why no one can define love.

You can’t define love, they say, but you’ll know it when it happens to you.

I know I love you and you can’t say that I don’t, and you can’t say, “Well, you don’t really love me,” because I really do love you, and you can’t argue that because I just know.

And I know I love you because I’m not afraid to say it to you. I want you to know that I love you, because thats the point of love.

And there are people in this world who don’t say “I love you” enough. There are people who will never admit that they love because they are afraid. Love is so common, what if we fail at finding it when so many others have succeeded? They’re afraid of being the fool who fell in love with someone who doesn’t love them back.

But its okay to love someone without them loving you back. Love knows no obligations, and love does not have any expectations. I don’t expect you to love me back- and I don’t expect you to not break my heart. I know you will hurt me, and I know one day you will betray my trust, and I know you don’t necessarily did anything to deserve or earn my love, but I love and trust you all the same. Love is about giving, not recieving.

And then there are people in this world who take the phrase “I love you” and throw it around like its nothing, but this is also because they are afraid. People take the phrase too lightly, to make it less special, less scary, but sometimes this makes it worse. Because now, I tell the person I love, “I love you,” it is assumed I don’t really mean it.

So let me make this clear: There are people I like, there are people I hate, there are people I dislike, and there are people that I love. You are someone I love, and I mean it. Whether you believe me or not. I just know.